Reminisce of Her Love and Life Essence™

Breaking free.

2012-01-30T22:17:00.001+08:00

Finally almost free from the political grasp, I just need to finish up a few reports and then they'll never hear from me again - just for a while though. If I could, I would definitely jet off right now. I don't know where to but preferably somewhere so faraway and enchanting, just some place away from my life.

I've begged my mum to let me board a cruise liner that's departing in March but she's been very skeptical about it. I mean I see no harm in it considering the fact that it's just a three-days trip AND that I'll be paying for it on my own terms. It's not like I'd elope or anything. She knows very well that I won't break the promise for an arranged marriage, it's for my own good after all.

I just really need to get away from it all.

Breaking free.

2012-01-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

Burdened.

2012-01-16T15:45:00.002+08:00

Dearest Elison,
Life is truly exhausting, it is indeed. I want to stop time so badly it hurts. They keep on piling up their works onto me. It isn't fair, not fair at all. But what can I do? Nothing. Even if I could, no one would actually care.

People are too caught up with their own lives. Too arrogant to feel sorry for others. I need to get away from here, I need a vacation. Yes, that's what I'll exactly do. After all this is done, I should take a flight to wherever - if possible, somewhere faraway. Switch off all connections from my life and just be someone else.

And perhaps, fall in love.

Youngest time.

2012-01-14T10:47:00.003+08:00

Dearest Elison,
Everyday I spent countless hours trying to figure out what life is to me, and honestly I'm so very lost in my never-ending cycle of thoughts. How is it that you were able to be sure of who you wanted to be when you were still so young and have not fully seen the world?

I look up to you, I do. You're everything that I am not. But sadly, I am everything that you lack. I guess that we need to compromise with each other. But surely, I'm still young with a lot of years ahead of me. Do I really need to figure out who I am now at this very moment?

Sincerely,
tired and broken.

A little less of a dream.

2011-12-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

Dearest Elison,
At least you've tried your very best. Don't be too hard on yourselves. The fault was inevitable, it was bound to happen. Know that I'll still love you, all of you. Everybody knows you tried, everybody knows it's alright.

You're still young, life's still ahead. It's okay, a little hiccup won't ruin you, nor my feelings. Just don't give up, never ever give up; promise me please.

Slightly fallen,
the girl who wishes.

For every once in a while

2011-12-12T09:28:00.002+08:00

Dearest Elison,
I am a dreamer of countless dreams. Everyone is a dreamer, of good and bad. But perhaps I dream too much. Things had always been my way, if not it had always served me well. The universe has spoiled me and now I actually do take some things for granted.

Sometimes, I yearn without making effort, with just hope I wish for a lot. And when nothing falls, I gloom. I'm a wishful thinker. I like to see things my way, and if it doesn't, I fight or quit altogether. A little bit of stubbornness but mostly marshmallows.

With the sweetest love,
your one and only.

Sorrowed love.

2011-12-11T15:01:00.001+08:00

Dearest Elison,
You once said that love will grow upon the trust that we build but how do you suppose I trust someone who I'll only see when the moon is blue. Your hinderance pains me. Just hearing your voice used to be enough but times have changed. We can't keep lying to ourselves. You know yourself that we've strayed and yet you tried nothing to save our promises, your promises. I need your reassurance. Is your love worth my trust?

With unassured feelings,
faltered trust.

2011-11-18T11:08:00.000+08:00

A perfectly nice day ruined by deceiving words. Thorn apart by rivalry. You deceitful liar. My trust for you crumbles yet again.

Forgotten.

2011-09-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

Waking up everyday to his voice, a melody so venomous. Looking to the mirror, pleased with your beauty. Dreaming of a harmony, day and night.

Dearest Elison,
I'm at loss for words. Just like what we've read in books, forever is just another word. I'm sorry that I'm always on the verge of breaking down, that I'm always falling apart. But it hurts, knowing that someone you care about is putting on a fake smile, that endless laughter, when in fact they cry themselves to sleep. What can I do to ease that pain? Because you're never here, I don't have anyone to lean on. Do you really think I'm happy?

With enough sincerity,
Just another girl.

I need Midas! ASAP.

2011-08-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

So I'm really tight on money this year. I can't even buy my books which are very hard to find or redecorate my room, now that I have my own room. It was a hasty decision. My sister was probably drunk when she decided to go on a trip end of the year. But I guess it would be a fun experience, having to get away from it all; parents, chores, friends haha. However, the downside is that we have to pay everything minus plane tickets from our own pockets. Mum refused to chip in more than tickets. Dad, well he only gave us his blessings. Heh. Really looking forward to being bums.

On another note, I think that I might be allergic to lavender. And mum still wants me to go out on dates.

Lavender kisses.

2011-08-02T04:33:00.000+08:00

Whenever I close my eyes at the end of each day, nostalgia overwhelms me.

If only I could go back to those days, you and I. But of course, there's nothing to regret. Life simply goes on...

Life just hurts.

2011-07-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

And she wouldn't even care how much I'm hurting right now.

Walking with broken dreams.

2011-07-15T19:33:00.003+08:00

Last month, my mum suggested that I go out with this boy who goes to the same school as me. So whenever I bump into him at school, I feel all awkward and such, especially since he's my junior.

Sigh, mum has been going on and on about how I should just enjoy my last teen years. Dates and such. But, ay ya yai, Elison and I are just doing fine. Sure we're on thin ice right now, being apart had made us stray. Even so, we're still together.

Updated May :)

2011-05-14T16:30:00.004+08:00

May wishlist.

2011-05-06T20:38:00.003+08:00

One: A complete DVD boxset of The Last Airbender from Book 1 to Book 3

Two: A piano-patterned Nodame bag

Three: Passion, A Fallen Series by Lauren Kate - Book 3

Four: A bowl (or two) of Charmy's Snow House's Golden Beach

Five: ~~Love~~ Birthday notes

Six: A surprise 'social gathering' with cake ;)

Seven: A trampoline

Eight: Pairs of heels

Nine: T-shirts

Ten: A scrapbook picture book

Eleven: Ginger Beer

Twelve: A kimono, not a yukata.

Thirteen: Elison :)

Up and down again.

2011-05-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

What happened tonight was I cried. I really really cried. As loud and pathetically as I could. What's more pathetic was the reason behind my tears and because it's so pathetic I'd be embarrassed to tell it.

A while after that I laughed even though I was still tearing up, then I cried again when mum came in and asked why I cried. Then I laughed again.

But I was sad nonetheless.

Bouquet of Emptiness.

2011-04-29T21:32:00.004+08:00

I guess falling apart is what I do best. As the sands of time continues to tick, my life left faltered. I'm tired of all these mindless love chase that can never get me anywhere but a cliff's edge - his three words got me even more confused. I'm spiraling to world's end. He shouldn't have said it, if he didn't we could've stayed together. Ottoke, I wasn't ready for reality.

Briar Rose

2011-04-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

Life is so comfortable right now that I feel like sleeping forever. My bed feels awfully nice and the room temperature is just right. I haven't even had nightmares in for very very long time which is simply endearing.

But I wouldn't be anything like Briar Rose if I don't have my white knight. Sigh. I remember one time my mum told me that it would be impossible for me to find my life partner considering the fact that I am very specific about the things that go into my mouth. She asked me what if my husband happens to be a vegetarian, and I told her that I would simply have to find one who can cook so that I won't always have to do the cooking :)

Elison can cook of course. Otherwise he wouldn't have worn that chef outfit the other day. Oh, he looked so gorgeous.

Outside and beyond.

2011-04-02T19:37:00.001+08:00

Dearest Elison,

I'm tired, frustrated and falling apart. At times like these, I honestly do not know what to do. I just wish that you're here right now, so that I can be in your warmest embrace and be lulled to sleep by the sound of your beating heart.

I love you, really, I do.

Sincerely Yours, forever and always.

Unsaid

2011-03-24T21:08:00.003+08:00

I'm punishing myself. I'm letting myself be drowned with words, thousands and thousands of them, pages after pages. I'm constraining myself to the boundary of another's imagination. I'm not even eating well. I've been skipping on a lot of meals, keeping myself glued to books. And I don't even like reading them.

I guess maybe it's because I needed to take my mind off of some things that have been tampering with my emotions. Honestly, I don't really like the idea of them being brought here, on May especially. I don't like the thought of even sharing them with others, strangers evidently. They have never really taken notice of them before, when they were still new (but of course amazing as always). I stood by them from the beginning, never judging them superficially. Although I am happy for their rising fame, I can't help but wish for the old days when they were only known to me. If only.

I'd pray everyday for that event to be cancelled. I'm sorry for being selfish but I am only human.

Littlest note

2011-03-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

Thing is I've been running without a destination, and this path that I am taking seem endless. I keep on slowing my pace but only for a while, because I fear that I might get left behind. It's hard to keep up with the others but I'm already trying my bestest. Sooner or later, I will lose my breath and will end up lost without guidance. I'm sure that I'm not even halfway there but I am already tired and drained.

I'm afraid that one day I might really forget who I really am.

Unattended.

2011-03-08T18:26:00.001+08:00

That single perfect moment when he said those three words I needed so badly.

But I'm sorry. He's just too good for me.

Less than happier

2011-03-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

So as the rest were busy attending to their life, I just stood there like an outsider to each and everyone of them. If only time would go faster.

I need to stop emitting awkward vibes.

Truer than true.

2011-02-25T11:27:00.002+08:00

So someone has been jealous and ranting on my dear blog. Geez.

But sigh.

Fallen is not Twilight

2011-01-24T20:20:00.003+08:00

I'm pretty much fed up at people who keeps on saying that Fallen is the next Twilight. It's not, definitely not, kapish?

Fallen is obviously much more better than Twilight, and clearly not deserving of such inhumane treatment. I mean how could readers even think of bringing Fallen down and comparing it to the level of a third-rate book? This is an absolute outrage! I hope people will stop comparing Fallen with Twilight, such comparison should never have existed in the first place.

Sunless days.

2011-01-07T16:55:00.003+08:00

I've been feeling pretty down lately, definitely not the way I wanted to start the new year. I was demoted on the first day of school. Dad kept on pressuring me to stop with debate. People keep shoving their workload to me. And I won't be able to celebrate his birthday, I won't be able to see him. I'm not happy.

I just don't know what to do. Always trying to see the brighter side of things wore me. Maybe I just need some time off, to think over and appreciate again. But it's tiring. Life's tiring. Life's probably the hardest math problem I ever encountered.

Sigh. I probably just need to stop seeing life as a math problem, that'll be start although I'm not sure where to. I need someone to guide me.

Please.

2010.

2010-12-31T23:19:00.004+08:00

A year I’ll always cherish and remember.
To me 2010 have been a golden year.
So many firsts happened this year, and they were mostly good ones.

My first paycheck,
My first actual win,
My first heartbreak,
My first run after so long,
My first Western trip,
My first roll down the hill :)
MY first cry in public,
My first football game,
My first birthday with the opposite gender LOL.
and so much more which I would rather keep secret ;)

Overall, I am grateful for each and every bits of memories given to me this year. It has be such a roller-coaster ride; meeting old friends& finding new ones, crying and laughing, dancing and singing, falling in and out of love, winning and losing, and just everything.

But in the end what I want to say is not Happy New Year, but Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. Aku bersyukur keatas segala apa yang telah di berikan kepadaku, whether it was an obstacle or a passage, I am glad to be bestowed with such gracious gifts. Indeed I am grateful and thankful :)

With utmost gratitude,
The girl who hopes to be even better next year.

Undecided.

2010-12-31T09:01:00.003+08:00

I am now somewhere in between two worlds. Sigh. After much thought about life itself, I am now uncertain about taking up the offer for the Japanese scholarship. Do I really want International Relations? Sure, I wanted to be a diplomat ever since the conference but can I really do it? Do I have the devotion and commitment to go through it all to the end?

I've thought about taking Social Sciences and Humanities but I'm also quite unsure. Philosophy? Maybe. Anthropology? Not sure. But definitely never Mathematics or anything that would require me to take out my calculator, ever.

I need someone to guide me. For sure Elison cannot help me here, considering the fact that he dropped out of college to chase such a ridiculous short-lived dream.

When will happiness befall on covetous?

2010-12-21T10:08:00.006+08:00

Sometimes there are moments in life when I just feel lost and confused, sad and agonised, as though life is not worth living. Sometimes giving up felt like the most right thing to do, perhaps the only thing. I can't help but wonder, will life ever be better for me? Of course, I am grateful for all that I have but I am only human and it is very true that humans can never be satisfied with what they already have, that they will always keep wishing for more. Some denies this by saying that they are content with what they have but is that ever true? Can that ever be true? Will s/he be able to find solace one day but not wish for a better tomorrow?

Sometimes we pretend to be strong and as though nothing had happened, our smiles become only skin deep and inside you struggle to keep your real emotions locked. That is why sometimes we feel more hurt than others. We'd blame others' happiness for our misery because sometimes wishing for our own happiness would mean wishing for another person's unhappiness. Sometimes we can't help but be selfish.

An encounter with the past

2010-12-06T11:03:00.003+08:00

So as I was deleting some ~~truly embarrassing~~ emails in my sent box, I stumbled upon an old composition of mine. I didn't remember ever writing in but it dated back to my midyear. So I read it.

I was beyond words. Now I understand why she wanted me to send that specific story to her. When I read it, I thought that I couldn't have written it but the character's names gave it away because I always use the names Maria and Daniel in my stories. Reading it, I wanted to cry. I didn't expect the story to be end that way, I honestly didn't.

Thinking back, I now wonder what actually went on in my head back then? My stories are usually filled with remorse, deaths, delusions and guilt. Why can't I write like that again? Stories with those plots are truly amazing.

Stories like ours.

2010-12-02T16:58:00.000+08:00

I can't wait to see him again. Oh how I missed him so. Now as the clock continues to tick, the time left for us to be reunited again shortens. Soon the farewell will end, and we shall meet eye to eye, heart to heart.

And I would be beyond ecstatic if we can finally celebrate his birthday together. The fact that our birthdate falls on the same daydate still awes me - thirteen. I feel that it is so much more than a coincidence because things don't just happen, they happen for a reason (or two). But hey, that's just my thought.

With absolute gratitude,
The girl who hopes to finally see him next year :)

2010-11-29T20:54:00.001+08:00

Sometimes there are moments in life when you will have to give up something that you really want or care for in order to protect a relationship that holds a certain degree in your life. Even with a heavy heart, even with tears in your eyes. Because that is how life is.

But sometimes you'll think that it's not fair considering the amount of things and time that you've given up, all your work done for nothing. All just because you couldn't go against your conscience.

I remembered one time I gave up my spot for a new runner even though I've trained weeks for that particular race. Why? I didn't know, just because maybe. But I regretted giving her that spot. She wasn't that good of a runner, probably not even a runner. I could've won that race hands tied to my back. And so since then I promised myself that I'll never give up something that I want ever again. But I still do.

And today, I'll have to give something up again. Something that I gave up last year, something that I hope I don't have to give up again next year.

Just so you know...

2010-09-24T08:02:00.000+08:00

Hi. In case any of you didn't know, I've been deprived of my phone. Yes, again. So I wouldn't know or reply any of your texts to my number. Hear that Syaff? It's not because I'm angry at you, okeh?

So, dearest lovelies, if there are important matters that you wish to notify me of, do it here or write them on my wall or just tell me at school. You can also reach me through my brother's number :)

TQ.

That spurring moment.

2010-08-22T20:19:00.001+08:00

I secretly plot for your demise everyday. No shit bro.

Okay. No. I lied. But seriously, do not disturb me ;)

cause you are the only exception

2010-08-11T17:25:00.002+08:00

If I were Lucinda Price I'd have two fallen angels- one who wishes for my utter destruction and another who'll always fall for me time after time of being reincarnated again and again.

I cant wait for Fallen to be made a movie :)

Team Daniel!

tumblr quote

2010-08-10T20:31:00.001+08:00

I’m not looking to fall in love. I’m not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around with, and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone I can easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy I can waste Friday nights with, laugh with, and have fun with. Someone who’s not perfect, but understands me, you know? Is that really too much to ask for?

-Kelsey, Georgia

i tried to move on but my heart kept holding on

2010-08-08T18:12:00.002+08:00

I tried telling myself that he's not worth it.
But letting go is not as easy as saying goodbye.
I shouldn't have fallen for you.

in my heart, through my eyes

2010-07-24T19:19:00.004+08:00

I tried letting go but it's not as easy. Though the misunderstandings have been cleared up, I found out that he still loves her. Crap.

I can't let go but the pain is unbearable.

the end of the non-existence?

2010-07-22T20:17:00.002+08:00

'If you wait too long for the perfect moment, the perfect moment could pass you by'

Life just loves to prove me wrong and make a mess out of me. Toying with my emotions is a no-no unless you want to be on my bitch list and trust me, you dont want to be there.

So now I'm just tired of waiting, tired of liking someone who probably doesn't even know my name, and just simply tired of waiting for his smile to be mine. Fuck it. Fuck everything.

I just want an easy life, to just go with the flow like what I have always been doing. So what if one guy can't see the beauty I behold *coughs* there's plenty of fish in the water, and he's not the only Nemo.

So I'll have to reconsider.

stop, please

2010-07-19T18:47:00.002+08:00

Is is okay for me to cry without any reason whatsoever?

I was actually feeling down today, I wanted to cry actually. My life is just too messed up at this moment. I just want time to stop, everything to stop. I just want to give everything up and sit in a little dark corner counting days that passes me by listening to Love Light on max.

Yes that what I usually do when I'm feeling down, lock the door to my room, switch on the air-con, and just hide myself from the world, wishing to not take part in anything.

Says she

2010-07-17T21:49:00.002+08:00

I was a tired, lonely and depressed 16-year-old hag whose five year long feeling have never been returned.

But now is a new year, I'm seventeen and beautiful (well at the very least I'm confident that I am beautiful). I've also moved on from that old unrequited love. Even so, I'm still tired lonely and depressed. I've found someone who I have an appeal to but my presence has never been acknowledged by him. How do you think that made me feel?

Sometimes there's a part of me somewhere deep inside that thinks I am just not good enough, not attractive enough to catch his attention. Perhaps I'm just not his type, or even we're just not right for each other.

Should I wait, stay and just watch?

Caramel Love

2010-07-14T17:32:00.003+08:00

Let me fill you in with something, if you have anything to ask me, just do so :)

Lull me to love

2010-07-13T20:30:00.003+08:00

Sing me a remedy for this state I'm in. It's all because of you that my heart skip beats and my smiles become endless. And yet, I want to stop time just so I can stay with you. You're very near though I am far apart. Un-do all this that you have done, and return my heart.

Talk to me. Glance at me. And end all these.

when the rain bows

2010-07-10T14:01:00.006+08:00

Love is poisonous, hazardous, dangerous.
Keep on guard so you'll not fall into one of its' traps. Deadly, love is.

Right now, I don't love him, yet. Going there, but how can I love someone who I know nothing of? I like him to an extent but not love. Perhaps, if we were given some time to get to know each other, who knows.

For now, I'd like to just glance at him from afar. Smile for every time my heart skips a beat. And just wait. :)

Falling hard for 6th-fiveoneone

2010-07-09T14:36:00.003+08:00

Have you ever thought that you'll never be able to fall in love ever again after loving someone for a long time only in return never receiving any love from him/ her?

That was the only thing holding me back from falling for another guy. Well, sure, of course along the way I had guys that I fancy, but never loved. How do we actually define love? One can never tell, but knows.

Love is too big of a word. But I knew that he was my first love, that was why I found it hard to let go of him. We were just never meant to be. We pass by each other day by day not even making eye contact. Reality hit me like a meteor. I knew then that I just had to let go, and I did.

Others would never know how much I loved him. Never would they know that I am where I am today because of him. How could I ever forget him? How could I ever when he was the one who set the path to my life now. Maybe that's why most people say that it is hard to forget your first love. Sigh.

But that is all over and done with. What is yesterday when today is now and tomorrow is far away.

There are plenty of fish in the water, I realised that. Yeserie, there are. One particular fish to my liking is .. Nemo ❤ [a nickname for him that my friends came up with]. Sure, we're not even anywhere near close but I am trying. And just today, well I'm not telling what I ~~did~~ carved to the table *sheepish grin*
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Hearts to you, lots of them :)

2010-07-07T19:29:00.001+08:00

For the first time ever, today, I watched a football match from beginning to end and I actually was absorbed in it. Though it didn't have the thrilling kind of feeling, it was still a good match.

Sigh. For now, I can only watch him from afar and once in a while, maybe, steal glances of his face. Also, today was perhaps the first time ever that we stood so close. Oh boy, you've got my adrenaline pumping. If I ever see you smile again, I think that may die of wishful thinking.

Talk. Just talk.

smiley face :)

2010-06-27T16:31:00.003+08:00

This guy, I like ♥♥♥♥♥

And since you asked, I DO LOVE YOU! Lots of kisses for you :)

Grinning hell.

2010-06-25T13:53:00.001+08:00

This can't be happening. This can't be happening.

No. I refuse to believe this. I refuse to believe anything. It's all lies. Nothing but lies.

Someone just told me that my long-distance, long-term significant other cheated on me and I dare not to find the truth. Sometimes the truths are better left unknown. But just the thought of him talking to other girls, laughing along with them, saddens me. Maybe I should've kept close contact with him, watch his every move, instead of letting him go freely.

I'm sorry. It's mostly my fault. I've been all caught up with the twins and Elison that you've slipped my mind. I can't even remember how long has it been since I first know you.

:(

Parting ways.

2010-06-24T18:05:00.004+08:00

To him whom I love,

Ever since I've come to know you and love you,
there were a lot of things that I wanted to tell you
but I couldn't find words to begin.

You were always staring at the sky,
as though you were thinking of something,
making me feel left out,
I tried to understand you,
but I never found the courage to know you.

Even so,
I hope that you are somewhere in this world,
acknowledging these loving feelings that I have for you.

With love,
from she who loves you

A love letter that I stumbled upon while dancing in the rain

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Meet The Procrastinator(?)

2010-06-20T17:40:00.001+08:00

Yes ladies ~~and gentlemen~~, I'm procrastinating right now and I don't even know if I'm spelling procrastinate right. But oh well.

O M G. In less than nineteen hours, school will start haunting us and I, not that it's new or anything, have not done any of my homeworks (at this point which is 13:53). Yet, I still feel like lazing around doing nothing.

School just doesn't scare me as much now that I know where I want to go. But the thing is, I have to maintain my grades to AAA or simply AAB. If college was as easy as eating a bar of chocolate (without any kind of nuts), I'll probably be where I want to be right now. Sigh. I just don't have the right kind of motivation in life. Wanna know what motivates me? Simple, the right amount of money. I'm not the kind who'd simply throw in money to a pair of kidnappers who threatens to kill the love of my life. Money makes my world round, and they keep me sane. Unlike people who'll come and go from our lives, money is ageless and everlasting. They would never betray you or leave you. But enough about my money beliefs, time flies too fast and I don't want to be burning the midnight oil later.

Oh yes, dear Elison, I'm falling for you all over again. Please stop teasing me with that smile of yours. I'm yours and I love you :)

reasons, and reasons alone

2010-06-14T19:58:00.001+08:00

I have always been intrigued by how the world works, and here what I really mean is the daily chances that are given to us - is it merely just a coincidence or that of fate?

Does everything happens for a reason or is it simply a flow that goes around the world like the clear oceanic waters? A lot of you out there may be strong belivers of fate and destiny, I am as well a believer but of many things. I believe that when you love something or someone too much, you should let them go. I believe that second chances are only worth giving to someone who deserves it, not just anybody. I believe that forgiving and forgetting is not a way of making peace because you are just turning a blind eye on the situation. I believe that it is no use working hard over something that is none of your interest. I believe in working at the last minute because only then will your true potential show. And of course among all of other things, I do believe in karma - what goes around in circle, comes the other way in circle. Yes, you've noted it, I am a believer of a lot of things and what you've seen ain't half of them. If I were to list them out, one paper will never be enough (two, maybe).

Before I get more side-tracked and forget what my intentions are in this post, let me guide you to my contention; chances and luck, fate and destiny. From my perspectives, not everything that happen, happens for a reason because sometimes coincidence take part in our life. And what was a mere coincidence may produce a chapter to a whole new book.

So now, having a week off without doing anything that beholds significant productivity has got my mind pondering all the while. I thought of a lot of things and people as well. I thought of my life so far, and then unlike a bolt of lighting something had crossed my mind. And that something had got me recaping my whole social life. Damn. Apparently, all this time, I have been chasing a love that is too high on cloud nine that I have closed the door to my heart restricting any other distractions to intervene. I've been so entranced by the spell that he has casted upon me that I have forgotten to look around. My life has been devoted to follow his every move, his every breath and, and because of these things that I grew fond of, my heart decided to turn a blind eye on the world, refusing to see all the other fishes that swims past me.

Because of one person, I am trapped. All the while, my soul mate might've passed by me. And today, coincidentally I met the guy whom passed my train of thought last night. When I saw him, I thought that it might be fate on the run but I didn't want to make the conclusion just yet. So I waited. Then, it happened again, I knew this time that fate was definitely making a move or so I thought. My head and my heart does not coincide, my heart thinks otherwise, my heart misses him - yes, that devious person whose love I crave for. Which is right here, my head or my heart?

My head is still in hiatus, but my heart wants to write.

Understand me, and read my lips

2010-06-09T23:06:00.001+08:00

Sometimes when they left me out, I turn my back and pretend not to know anything.

FRIENDS. This is the label that is globally misused. There is no denying the fact that the concept of the word 'friend' has been altered over the years. No one knows what true meaning that lies beyond the word because everyone is too caught up trying to get a glimpse of this superficial world. As long as you've sat down for a cup of coffee or a glass of mango juice, and talk for a moment or two, you consider yourselves friends. Or maybe perhaps, after knowing each other for three years but never kept in contact all those while, you'd still call them your friends. It's not called kindness, it's ignorance.

So honestly, are we still friends? And please, do take note that I never kid when I say that I don't want to do it.

Still. Hiatus.

Hiatus. Simply that.

2010-06-03T18:42:00.001+08:00

Yes baby, holiday time! I'm definitely going to make these sweet seventeen days of freedom as unproductive as possible :)

Oh, and yes, my blog will be on hiatus as well as my heart. I don't want my leisure time to all be filled with visions of his face, as tempting as that may be. I need to seriously take my mind off him, and perhaps forget about all those.

Forget homeworks, we can do them on the last two days of holiday. Let's just go all out, and have fun!

these unproductive feelings

2010-05-28T09:30:00.000+08:00

We might as well part ways if you're not going to do anything about us.

have i really?

2010-05-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

I. Think. That. I. Am. Finally. Falling. For. You.

But. Not. Yet.

Grotesquely Enchanted

2010-05-22T16:31:00.000+08:00

If dying can make us feel better, then I don't mind trying it out.

A Broken Remedy

2010-05-20T18:10:00.002+08:00

//You don't know how much I love you,
You don't know how much I need you boy,
Is it even possible for me
To feel this way
Right here and right now
Cause nothing makes sense at all//

The best way to cure a broken heart is to fall in love with someone else. But will there be anyone good enough to mend the pieces back together?

Meeting Reality

2010-05-17T17:26:00.000+08:00

I have always thought that things would be easier if he knows of my feelings towards him, but never did I took into account if he'd turn a blind eye to me. Fuck.

I feel like slapping that confident face of his. Right now, though he still do make my heart skip beats, he wouldn't know how much I honestly wanted to gauge his eyes out when he pretends not to see me even though our gaze met.

Maybe, five years were just not enough for him. Perhaps, the time for me to let go of this desperate one-sided love has come. Maybe, just maybe.

Oh what should I do Elison? Please tell me!

FTW!!

2010-04-14T19:57:00.001+08:00

Oh gosh. I dont even care anymore. I just need to concentrate on my studies. Okeh. Bye.

Like I give a damn

2010-04-13T18:50:00.003+08:00

CWRAP!

Love Remedy

2010-04-10T20:17:00.002+08:00

Elison. Elison. Elison.

I dont care if I sound desperate, but I just miss him.

Singing songs on the staircase didnt help.
Walking miles didnt help.

But it felt so good when I cried in the library, a thousand tears representing my sorrows. Somehow, I wished he'd just come bursting into the room and ask me what was wrong. He shouldve taken more notice of his surroundings. I mean, I was goddamn right behind him before I burst into tears. Instead, some other guy watched my tears.

I'd rather it be when he doesnt know of my existance. Then I wouldnt have put much hope on him.

I NEED MY BABY!

2010-04-09T21:18:00.001+08:00

OH ELISON! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?

I miss you :(

Life is..

2010-03-31T20:57:00.002+08:00

Elison.
I miss you.
Happy belated birthday.

Darn. I didnt get to celebrate his birthday. Sigh. Time. Why do you loathe me?

Lost for words

2010-03-31T20:49:00.002+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen.
Cwrap.
Sighness.

"Hey, how was your holiday?" smiled one of her friends, waving one hand at her.

"What holiday!?" she replied with an intense electrifying glare that sent a million volts down her friend's spine.

Urrgghh.

It's true that every cloud have a silver lining, or two

2010-03-19T21:14:00.003+08:00

Ahhh.

Life's good. So far. I'm loving it.

Guess what, I was given a second chance into grabbing that luscious golden ticket, and wa-lah, I'm in the school team! Yes! :) Lots of happy faces from moi.

Lets just hope that I'll pass the MP interview, amin.

oh shi-- shoot! We got told off today for being 'immature' and 'unprofessional' haha, awesomeness. Please dont put the blame on me, Jan and ECYY started it, I was the VICTIM! Obviously I have to defend myself against the assault. But I do admit that it was childish of me to run around the hall with charcoal-painted hands like some crazy dude trying to catch up with an innocent guy. HAHAHA. Got tired and sick afterward, kept on coughing and my bandaged-left knee was just itching for attention from me.

Oh, have I mentioned the fact that I slept in the store room while the others [by that I mean Jan and Syy] relentlessly searched for me? I couldn't resist the temptation of the dreamland because someone interrupted my sleep earlier on. Sigh. Yes you, I was honestly sleeping tadi! Way to go!

What Last Waltz?

2010-03-08T18:02:00.002+08:00

"Let's dance until the fire in my heart dies"

- Maajidah Mahmud

I volunteered for the 'end-of-the-day' speech, there'll be an audition. So who am I up against? The awesomely amazing War' and the always undefeated Dinn. Sighness.

Putting that aside, I did VERY, note the block letters, badly in debate today. I mean, seriously, I sucked big time! Dymn. There goes my golden ticket.

Worded Opinions

2010-03-07T12:17:00.001+08:00

Sigh.

I dont understand the use of pain killers. Shouldn't it do what the name implies? My head is at her breaking point (yes, it's a girl!) being filled with emotions I knew was never worth it; sadness. Not sure why, but I've been feeling down lately and every night before going to sleep, doubts paraded me. I was afraid that I might not open my eyes again once I close them.

It has almost been a week now since I've started taking pain killers, again. And yet, the pain is still dominating me. Perhaps, the ones I'm taking now are not as strong as the one before.

A friend told me that I'm addicted to them and that I'm only taking them so that people would pay attention to me. Not true! Well half of it may be true. I'm definitely not addicted to them, sure I may have taken more than I should've in the past but it wasn't because of addiction, it was more because of insecurities and I'll stop there. Too much information leaking out. She was right about the attention part. I thought that my parents weren't giving me much attention especially since I'm starting out at a new school.

I feel abandon and neglected. It feels as though I'm not an important part of the family, and I hated it. I know this is quite a hard time for my parents but still I would've feel much better if they'd show a bit of interest towards me and even if they dont, couldn't they have at least pretended to care?

Why is it that among the eight of us, I'm the one who always have to give in. I'm always, always the one to be depended on. Why? I'm tired of it. I'm tired of my life and now a part of me even hates my own name. No one understands me in this household. It feels as though I'm back at my grandparents' house, where I'm no one's favourite, where I'm the black sheep. Where no one genuinely loves me and I was left alone. Even if I voice out my opinion, I would only seem selfish to them. They see the world only through their eyes while I try my hardest to view the world through everyone's eyes. Before I speak of my own opinion, I'd think of them first and not say it if I know that they wouldn't like it.

I'm tired of living life trying to please them while I neglect all of my own feelings. Sure, I'm happy pleasing them but then, when will my time come if I keep on doing those things? Will I ever be truly happy in life? To you right now, I may seem selfish and unthoughtful but if I don't voice out my heart now, when will I find the courage to do so again? I'm tired of bottling up all my feelings inside, I'm tired of putting on a fake smile and a fake laugh when deep down my heart is crying. I'm tired of being the girl you expect me to be. I'm tired of everything.

I dont hate anyone. It's just that I feel that I'm invisible sometimes and I hated it because I know that they could see me. I wish that I was a little kid because then I could cry all I want and have everyone coming to comfort me.

When The Spring Comes

2010-03-04T13:34:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I feel left out
And I don't know what to do
I have always wished that
Someone would lend me
A shoulder to cry on

P.S: iloveyou, i do

The Unwritten Wish

2010-03-02T14:57:00.002+08:00

I thought that I was going to die last night. I thought that if I closed my eyes, I might not open it again. I thought of my family, my friends and myself. Tears filled my eyes though they never left. I hid under the covers, afraid of others seeing them, seeing me in the state of falling apart. I wonder if anyone would miss me when I'm gone.

I'm was certified repo man

2010-02-17T17:50:00.002+08:00

Haha. WAS! XD

Anyways, I had to update this blog because I need to inform my friends (if you consider yourself my friend) that both my phone are 'repossessed' by both my sister, who now I call Ah-Long *glares*

Being the youngest between us three, I had to give up both my phones and lend it to them because I dont really use my phone and they said that they urgently needed phones considering both of them have an ill-mannered stup*d the-opposite-of-working phone!

Haha, bet you dont quite understand the above sentence. I dont either! Now, dear friends and fiends, my point in that annoyingly long sentence is that I'm not using the phone (for now) and so if you need to contact me urgently tweet to me or call my house :)

OHHH! Have you seen my gallery? U-KISS 100*100 ICONS!!! :D It was actually meant for my online portfolio but things had been hard for me, so I decided to just put it up here; Ahh, home sweet home :)

You may have realised the ug-lay link button of mine. Haha, yes I admit it! But somehow I couldn't locate my original button, it's lost somewhere in the devastatingly massive numbers of yellow folders on this computer I'm using. That button's only tempora- oh darn. *nosebleeds* @#$%! ^/////////////^ justsawyunhofreakinghotsexybody!

...

The button is only temporary, I'll be replacing it with a new one once I get my hand on photoshop. Any requests on icons? Tag me, I'll consider it. Oh, and the button is not be confused with the other buttons from philauticmirth (I use the same screen name& it's too late to change now)

Darn!

2010-02-06T10:44:00.003+08:00

Oh hi! Remember me? I guess you dont, sighness. But like whatever. I have a debate meeting with the juniors in a few hours and thought that I should come by my blog for a while, and WOW. It's pretty empty.

...

Oh! Em! Gee! Hey Brunei! Have you heard? U-KISS is so darn hot! Haha. ♥ And I've finally found a group of Brunei fangirls supporting U-KISS @KISSMEbrunei. Kyahh! Paradise! Though they havent had an official forum. Maybe I should offer some help? Though my photoshopping& designing skills are not as awesome as my fellow blogger friends at philauticmirth, it may be of use somehow. Oh yes, philauticmirth is dead right now. Cant find anyone who's willing to update that site, for free.

U-KISS HWAITING!

Work till 10

2009-12-08T18:39:00.003+08:00

OH-EM-GEE!

I'm officially working tomorrow! Where you ask, well you know that awesome boutique owned by ~~Eileen C~~ BINGO MEN. Ohoho, yes there! :)

Back from the slumber

2009-12-07T11:22:00.002+08:00

Hello my loves! Yes, you got it right! I'm back from the dead! Whoot! Isn't that a nice cause to celebrate? Don't forget the pinata and be sure to fill it with lots of Cadbury!

So yeah, obviously a lot had happened since I were gone and I'm sure that you won't even bother to read it so why make a fuss over thing like this. Understand? No? Welcome to my world :)

Oh but there is one thing I would definitely love to share with you, guess what? *grins widely* Hehe, I'm entering a modeling contest!! Kyyaahhh!! Looking through the participants' data and photos, OMG! Have they not eat? Hahha, I'm more nervous now. But I honestly want to win it because the selected winners would get to go to Japan! Hear that Syyah? Oh, let's both work hard together! Ganbatte^^

I'll be back early December :)

2009-10-22T18:39:00.002+08:00

Announcement!

2009-09-24T09:49:00.003+08:00

ﺴﻼﻤﺔ ﻫﺎﺭﻱ ﺭﺍﻱ عيد الفطر

I'll be on hiatus! So see you some time later :)

Oh, and before I forget, Thank you snow for the mention in your blog!

OXOX,
Gorgeous Jydah

As if all is fair in love and war

2009-09-20T21:03:00.001+08:00

Ramadan is officially over and as I promised in my previous post bla bla bla blah. You know what to do;

The password is stupid! [include the exclamation point please]

Click this sentence if you would like to proceed.

So a lot have been wondering about who SHE is and what HAS she done well, they say that a picture says a thousand words [or was it a million?] and beside, this will last longer.

Look at the 'About Me' section [oh and by the way, I do know how to spell DINOSAURS, the O in my spelling is a pun]

Oh please, could she be even more desperate? I bet she doesn't even know what synthetic means

And, compare these posts as well;

Mine: A B
Hers: A B

Now, as you can see from my now UG-LEE cbox, this so-called King person has been harassing my cbox, going over the limits, asking me (a blogger) questions that normally bloggers wouldn't answer to just some strangers. I had been kind enough to give her [yes, it's a SHE] some of the links to the sozais but to her it was just not enough! Sigh, I'm not running a charity here! Hello, is there a brain in that head of yours?

As you can see below, she's been changing names but unfortunately for her just changing names wouldn't be enough to change her IP.

Sigh, the nerve of some people, using a friend's name to harass my cbox. Hello! I can still see your never-changing IP.

And how did I made sure that the accused person is King you may ask, well I've been busy running around, jumping from one blog to another, clarifying with other bloggers her IP address. I know, smart, ain't I?

Ladies and gentlemen, you have my permission to flood her effing cbox~ She is after all an identity thief with an inferiority complex. FYI, she 'hacked' my sister's facebook account and changed her password. I think she has deleted that account and then again, she 'hacked' the new account of the same sister of mine and she's currently using it. That b*tch!

2009-09-17T10:31:00.005+08:00

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ユキス愛 ~♥

2009-09-16T15:27:00.002+08:00

ユキス
ユキス
ユキス
ユキス
ユキス

A grand wish, but it is to my utmost desire to have them here. But alas, sigh, it will remain a dream as it is highly unlikely.

OXOX,
Wishful Jydah

場合だけにすることを意図された

Are titles a MUST?

2009-09-12T12:14:00.004+08:00

Semi-finals are over! And Ethan was CUTE Haha. Shuusshh! Don't tell anyone, please
Finally! Holiday baby~ Let's dance Woot! Woot! *cough cough* Okay, stop!

Oh, by the way, as you may have already realise it, or not, I've deleted the old UG-LEE smilies from my cbox and uploaded a new batch, try 'em! Try 'em! The lucky 100th tagger (after this is posted) will win a SPECIAL prize [yeah right! ] Come on lah, try meh I know you want to.

Moving on;
Urgh! Sigh! Ekkhh! I'm exasperated, last night I spent my money on things that I'm sure are definitely not needed in my life. I just can't stop my obsession towards those cute Japanese items! Kyyaah! Kawaii! Hehe.

And, before I go, one last thing, LET'S DO THE SKELETON DANCE Uh-huh! Oh-yeah!

OXOX,
Obsessed Jydah

Get well soon!

2009-09-09T12:57:00.002+08:00

ただ、彼の弟の隔離を出た後、データが見つかりました。私は彼の細かいことを望む!

OXOX,
Dancing Jydah

blood types part III

2009-09-05T15:26:00.004+08:00

Hey friends! Remember that earlier this year I've posted up something about blood types. Yeah, good times good times. I have actually forgotten about it and if it weren't for Fyzah and Syyah who mentioned about them this morning, you may never be able to see the BEST part about those mini comics [which by the way I am saving for the last] BWUAHAHAHA!

BUT!! Before you begin reading part III, I would like to THANK Jolene for making the site's button! THANK YOU!!

(drum rolls) If the world of blood types were represented as houses!

[click on images to enlarge]

I think what it meant to say is 'trust' instead of 'bust'

Part I
Part II

OXOX,
Forgetful Jydah

Credits to Cyworld

just a quick update

2009-09-04T13:34:00.001+08:00

A month to go, I think, till our BIG exam. OMG! It's now time for intensive studying! Eh, wait, Baccano!'s on air!

Sigh, I'm ashamed of myself I just can't seem to concentrate on my studies since there are always tempting distractions. Ahh, so tempting

Mmghh! Got to snap out of it! I- I guess that there's no other choice but to-- turn my back away from, anime and manga... Don't worry about me! I'll get over it..

Haha, like whatever! As if I would ever do that! No way man! Do you think I'm crazy? That'll be like throwing away my life! Well, some of it at least.

Anyway, friends of mine out there, I'm SERIOUSLY craving for SUSHI& also, a bit of Udon Mee. Pweety pweesh with cheese on top..? I'll be your best friend and we can run towards the sunset together Huh, huh? So, what do you say?

OXOX,
Gorgeous Jydah

baby, talk talk talk to me

2009-08-28T16:17:00.003+08:00

Ramadhan. Sigh. Don't worry, pejam celik pejam celik ta-da! RAYA!! Banzai! Banzai!

But that'll have to wait because first we'll have to commit ourselves to removing those unwanted/ excess fats from our bodies! Ignore all those tempting delicacies girls, we need to shave off some weight to fit into our Raya clothes;

Please do restrain yourself from eating junks

Fully commit to your New Year's resolution

And do exercise as well

Be honest to yourself and COMMIT, or else...

Oh, and another piece of advice, to the young couples out there, it's Ramadhan now and please, have you not seen enough of each other? Can you not go on dates on other months?

NO! & NO!
No DATES please!

Or else Chuckie will come after you!
and if he doesn't, I WILL BWUAHAHAHA!!

OXOX,
The girl called Jydah

Lost and Found, a friend's confession

2009-08-02T02:00:00.003+08:00

A rather interesting book, it was. Mysterious, solemn, touching and twisted in every corner (by that I do not mean twisted as in GORY AND STUFFS, just twisted as in unexpected). Loved the way the author wove words after words creating a somewhat harmonious sentence (well, to me at least).

Enough about books, time for confessions. 2AM. Wonderful, May is most dominant, isn't that lovely. They have first, second and eleventh. That is at least one of the few reasons why I love them more than 2PM. I, let me spell it out for you, L - O - V - E 친구의고백. It's so suh-weet. Endless smiles, grins and beams across my face as my heart would unexpectedly dance to one of the sweetest lyrics they've heard. Sighness.

2AM, the COOLEST time of the day (since 2PM is the hottest time of the day). Hah, 2AM HWAITING!

Quote:

Idol group U-Kiss has been considered for a 150 billion KRW worth collaboration project between Japan and Korea.

I love this one and that is a lot of zeros, don't you think so?

OXOX,
the-oh-so-twisted head of Jydah

Mirror oh Mirror

2009-07-11T16:36:00.002+08:00

An inspiring cellist whose music touched me. A singer whose voice cluttered my mind. I've fallen for her music as it penetrates through my heart.

As a teenage girl who have a lot in mind, I've never really taken music seriously. I only listen to them just because. Even when I was learning notes and keys, it's not because I honestly love the piano but simply because I just feel like it and maybe it was the influence of La Cordo D'oro, somewhere between those two I guess.

However, there was this one particular time where two anime characters, Megumi Noda and Shinichi Chiaki, were playing Rachmaninoff's Piano Concerto No. 2 and somehow I, too, was captivate by that wonderful piece. Sigh.

I got the fever!

2009-07-05T15:07:00.002+08:00

A very, very INTRIGUING song. Enjoy!

OXOX,
the-oh-so-cool Jydah

i'm still waiting

2009-07-04T11:51:00.004+08:00

It was not as easy as it may seem but alas I am finally done with it (this was last week). Seeing the fact that my last detail was clichéd, I decided to write a letter to my 'Prince Charming' (by write I meant expressing it into some sort of art piece?) so that it is not so clichéd?

[note: the question marks (?) are because I'm not sure what I'm trying to say/ write]

To whomever this may concern;

OXOX,
tired-of-waiting Jydah

June's

2009-07-03T15:45:00.004+08:00

sigh.

birthdays...

Fyzah (6th June)

Syyah (19th June)

May you both have a jolly good year

when all comes to an end a little too soon...

2009-06-19T14:02:00.006+08:00

it's okay to smile even if you don't mean it.

you will always be in my heart

2009-06-04T17:06:00.006+08:00

He was my everything,
He was the only reason that I would smile,
Just seeing him gave me butterflies,
And did not want to share him with others....

However,
that was yesterday,
the past,
and I've learned from it

What matters most is now,
the present,
the future can wait,
and if tomorrow never comes,
I want you to know,
that you're always in my heart,
and nothing can change that

Happy Birthday Micky!

wishful glee

2009-06-01T12:50:00.002+08:00

My password was, unfortunately, the very reason why I have not been updating my blog. An option that was always there was to reset it, but then I would have to think of a new password, and I do not like to think [even though I spent almost 95.8% of my time doing it]. Fortunately, a fall from fantasy woke me up and somehow, murmured my password. I know that nothing seems to make any sense now, but just bear with me or you can just click on the big fat [X] on the top right of your screen.

F.M.E.O

Mum told me just now that she saw a Leighton ad in a newspaper somewhere last week, so I rummaged thorough the piles of newspapers in the kitchen but unfortunately, Dad didn't buy that particular newspaper, sigh...

Let me now mourn sorrowfully in gloom

OXOX;
no one special

fazed serendipity

2009-05-01T11:43:00.004+08:00

All is fair in love and war

that's what they say...

"私はいつもあなたの愛が"
しかし、物事は異なっている
失礼しました

Sorry was the word but I would never admit that I'm wrong.

There's nothing much to blog about here since I've pretty much had 'deleted' everything that comes to mind over the past few days to make more space for other seemingly important things.

Envy is a disease | Drama is a situation | Love is a parasite | Life is a maze

Everything in life seems so wrong but chocolates and Kleenex can always make you feel better. Screaming at the top of your lungs feels so good, trust me but please don't do it in a crowded place, someone might call the ambulance.

i'm hungry

2009-04-05T14:26:00.008+08:00

504

Birthdays... So how was the cake?

Happy Birthday to;

Sa Nee-chan!

&&

Hanee!

May they have a happy and blissful year!
And good luck for your exams

Peace out!

don't get me started on how stup*D it was

2009-04-04T21:08:00.003+08:00

Today was one word;

BORING!

Lesson learnt: Never get your hopes too high

F.Y.E.O

some nights are just better off without me

2009-03-30T20:37:00.004+08:00

Starting from this night onwards I'll be burning the midnight oil and if you ever see me on messenger at night, just ignore me!

Anyway, before I go, here's an update from Shutter Speech;

Reviews

2009-03-25T17:03:00.004+08:00

This was the book I read and had finished just a while ago. I'd give it a 3 out of 5. The book was so-so; descriptions were given off well, a lot of conversations [I'm not really the type who likes conversations]. Overall the book was good though I think that Dead Famous' Cleopatra and Her Asp was better but they are of two totally different stories so I'll just have to put the other book aside and not compare it with Escape Down the Nile.

So anyway putting those aside, what I saw lying on the DVD rack of a shop was another new Barbie production movie; Thumbelina. Sadly though, I didn't buy it cause I thought that I am way too old for those kind of things, not!

I'm pathetic

2009-03-22T19:26:00.009+08:00

Days and nights passed,
All alone I was,
In that very claustrophobic room,
Talking to myself,
Like someone with multiple personalities,
Though this seemingly poem doesn't rhyme,
And it is full of errors,
This girl here do not give a d***

Two words; bored, bored. *sigh*
Never have I ever in my life felt VERY unproductive, *sigh*
And since I pretty much have nothing to do except staring into my phone waiting for text messages that'll never come, I'll be posting up random pictures, *sigh*

Try to spot me in the pictures below~~

Sampai disini sahaja dahulu.

Now that I have something to do, I don't wanna do it.

A Hot Debate

2009-03-21T15:46:00.005+08:00

First of all, I would like to wish a very beloved friend a Happy Birthday! May you have a happy and blissful life!

[photo]

There's suppose to be a photo actually but since I've been awfully busy and lazy lately I'll do it next time xD

Anyways, had a debate with my twin this morning, a very HOT fiery debate!

[click on image to enlarge]

It first started out as a compliment to Sa but then, being a girl who owns a dictionary that says no one's as pretty/ adorable/ gorgeous/ beautiful/ cute/ hot/ stunning, so on and so forth, as you, I pointed out that I AM HOT.

Sekian.

Yang Benar,
Jydah Penas

The D'Anggerek Ladies Guild Dramatic Society Production of Macbeth

2009-03-20T15:00:00.003+08:00

The D'Anggerek Ladies Guild Dramatic Society Production of Macbeth

It is a comedy and please be aware that this is not the actual Macbeth play.

" It is a classic story about a group of ladies who attempt to stage Macbeth as their entry for a Drama Competition. The heavens conspire to ensure everything possible goes wrong, with series of mishaps occurring. But the valiant ladies struggle on regardless, though no one is quite good enough to save the day." - quoted from Shutter Speech

There'll be three shows altogether; Friday night, Saturday afternoon and Saturday night (17th Apr& 18th Apr). The play is at Taman Desa Hall, 6th floor, D'Anggrerek Hotel.

C for Ketupat

2009-03-12T18:10:00.005+08:00

My facebook has been running slow lately *sighs* Having P.B.D, still. Somehow I just can't get the thought of it out of my head and I am guessing that it is the cause of the breakdown of my brain. It's getting really annoying. My brain is running very slow these past few days, very slow to the point that when I was asked to name a fruit that starts with the letter C I answered ketupat, confidently *sighs*

Received another email from Apple today and this time it's about a talking iPod, I want!

Anyway, I'll end my post with a picture showing the caffeine test result I got;